Last night I attended a beautiful wedding. Two people who searched for each other and finally found what they were looking for. doesn't happen much these days... to really find what you're looking for. it's a fierce road. i'm not much into weddings myself, but this one was an exception. it felt authentic. i know the two people are fierce about their own lives and so they are fierce with each other. seeking truth and growing. it was an honor to be there.
it was strange for me to be in a situation where i was around a lot of people i don't know. i felt out of place and strange... even goofy. but i didn't get anxious about it. i liked that. i just found a table and some food and camped out. later i was luck to connect with the sister of a brides maid. she was fun to talk to. We talked at one point of how we wished we could live less self consciously. i told her one of my goals is to feel okay going bra-less. just not caring if other people are freaked out by that or not... who know someone might like it. she said she wanted to be able to leave the crowd and go to the river and put her feet in. what freedom. i liked talking to her a lot.
i guess i'm done writing for right now. i feel like i have a lot of thought flowing through me, but when it comes to writing them down the flowing feeling changes to a dried up feeling. hopefully, with time i'll get better at this.
